Until the Spring Day Comes

Originally I was going to do updates on this blog. Use it more as a classic blog-- makes sense. Yet, recently I find myself wanting to speak more, hmm... thoughtfully. My time in London has continued, yet so much of me has changed-- yet, also not really? A quick gist: I am successfully enrolled in school, I have gone to quite a few events(mostly museums and kpop-related), I have made some friends, I have lost a lot of money, I wish I was doing more. 

Everything seems to be flattening-- life I mean. Living in London is less new and therefore less exciting, and now I simply have to deal with everyday life as it is. I can, of course, continue to go to random events I find, and I am. However these random events can never truly keep my mindset up. I know it is related to the content I consume. I am doing a lot and making a lot of friends, however, none of what I am doing or my friends are at the same level as the things I see online. Nothing is ever enough. 

I find myself missing the moon. The stars. Familiarity. I am mostly used to my life here, but there are aspects I am still begging myself to find. A week off from school was not good for me. I have been able to experience more with connections I hoped for, but could not truly imagine. But there are still more needs in my heart.

I wish I trusted in my drawing. My sociality. My livelihood. Myself.

(Published months after writing-- I'm not sure when ._.)